Autumn's the Mellow Time

Anxiety is the hand maiden of creativity.
Jamesryan
http://jamesmarionette.tumblr.com/ask
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http://www.myspace.com/seekwhattheysought

Hi, my name is: Ry
Never in my life have I been: skydiving
The one person who can drive me nuts is: Eh, nevermind.
When I’m nervous: Get shy.
The last song I listened to was: Toxic (cover) by A Static Lullaby
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Jonesy
My hair is: Not the right color.
When I was 5: I wish I could remember then. Or maybe I don’t.
I should be..: happy.
When I look down I see: The keyboard sitting on my lap.
The happiest recent event was: Umm, I’m not sure.
By this time next year: To be honest, in Buffalo, I hope.
My current gripe is: undisclosed.
I have a hard time understanding: love.
There’s this girl I know that: is IMing me right now.
I like you when: you send me picturesssss!
Take my advice: listening to your heart can get you lost.
The thing I want to buy: a MacBook Pro.
If you visited the place I was born:You’d be a town over.
I plan to visit: Buffalove!
If you spent the night at my house: I’d make you stay up all night with me cause I don’t sleep. Seriously.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: loose tobacco for rolling.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: two packs of cigars. :D
My middle name is: Ryan
In the morning I: I’m still awake from the previous night.
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: Dragons.
A better name for me would be: Caleb.
Tomorrow I am: not knowing what I’ll be doing as I’m doing it.
Tonight I am: probably doing more of this.
My birthday is: April 24th, 1989.

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming
And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadows on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted—nevermore!

TUMBLR, I NEGLECTED YOU.

And I’m sorry.

BUT I’M BACK!

I’m going to start a Riot.

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For Cory Ray

A littler birdie told me Cory Ray thinks I’m vain because I take pictures of me on my phone at random times, delete the ones I don’t like, and send the ones I do like to my GIRLFRIEND, which asks for the photos because we’re in a long distant relationship. It makes her happy for me to do so. :]. When asked, I do say I am just learning guitar. The photo in the park was taken spontaneously (I was practicing the song If I Could by Alex Arthur in that photo). I know a few songs. Yeah. And as for actually playing music, I’ve recorded with a band in a full professional studio. We even had a logo and played real shows. I’d like to hear you say that, honestly. There’s that word you like to just throw around. Yeah, I’m 6 foot tall, honestly. Well, if I were Cory Ray, I could say that HONESTLY, but seeing that I try to follow the rule of the word as defined, I cannot. I am a mere 5’6”-7” [somewhere in there].

As for “look at me, I’m good.” I spend about 4 hours a day training in martial arts, and the rest of the time I scatter amongst my other activities in practice. If you want proof of me playing in Norwich, look up Matt Jones, he’s the kid I play with. Another example. You asked me to tattoo you. I told you I wasn’t good enough and didn’t trust in my capabilities to do such a tattoo yet, did I not? So there, I admitted it. I say the same to all who ask for tattoos.

But hey, at least I don’t waste my time getting as high as I can to avoid my real problems. I faced my problems, and that left you in a pile on the floor in the room just next to that in which I type at this moment. Oh fucking well. Go ahead, become mayor of Norwich. BIG FUCKING DREAMS right there. Turn a hell hole into a pretty one, if you dare.

Also, stating you haven’t seen my poetry is a blatant lie. You were on your laptop in your kitchen, thoughtfully admiring your intellect found within your silly little Xanga when you asked me to. I typed in the url to my Tumblr, this page you may or may not be reading this upon at the very moment, and showed you a poem entitled Together We Will Live Forever. And you read it. Again, so much for your brand of honesty.

On to your next point. If I had been angry when I attacked you, my attack would not have been so tactful. Two punches, and then a rear naked choke hold, executed to perfection. You could do nothing. And then I stood, and let you open your mouth again, in which my brother, sick of your tongue, struck you to silence the lies flowing like vodka induced vomit.

But when it all comes down to it, and as I have learned in my multiple ranking tests in multiple martial arts: physical combat is not a test of physical endurance, but mental. The will of a man overcomes the strength of a man any day. Your will was simply found wanting.

Yeah, I’ll admit your tongue is laced with the silver of a serpent, but a fallacy is a fallacy no matter how you spew it.

P.S. I’ve always stated I used to be buddhist. Stop trying to hold on to something so hard - it’ll get you punched in the face.

So…

I move around July 10th. I can’t wait. I’ve freed myself of old chains and hounds (particularly hounds, or dogs, of the female sort) that wouldn’t seem to quit pestering me. I may be trading guitars with Matt Jones, my acoustic for his Acoustic-Electric, pending him getting the electronics in it fixed. I have it this week with me for the time being, as a bit if a trial run. I’ve learned Haunt Me by November Blessing, though it’s not perfect yet, and I can’t quite sing and play simultaneously. I’ll get there, though.

I’ll be heading to Dallas for visitation and to get things in order in 5 weeks. Koda and I have plans to go to Warped Tour then, as well. Koda’s been pushing me to follow my dreams, the real ones I abandoned a long time ago. Maybe this time it will work. The girl I was with the last time I pursued my dream in music, she didn’t believe in me. Her mouth told lies while her eyes showed the truth. Nonetheless, this is just more to the evidence that Koda is my perfect girl. <3.

Now, the other Koda, as in our old dog with the same name as my girlfriend showed up here at the house last night. His new owner hasn’t come and picked him up yet. He’ll know the dog is here, for Koda’s showed up here several times in the past year. I’d like to be able to keep him, though the possibility of that is slim to none.

More updates to come…

Maybe this is just good karma, finally.

If you didn’t know: I am an owl.

Today.

Today.

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